GRIP ON ME
Hold me until I can’t breathe
And call it a hug
Ruin me like it’s nothing
And call it love
You’ve got the same
Grip on me
That the moon has
On the sea
My heart is a minor detail
But it's falling apart
I’m losing all my features
And to you I’m just wall art
Oh I want to tell you all the things I never said
But it’s stupid that you’re still in my head
I don’t want to break
Anymore
ROMANTICS
Nothing is platonic for a romantic
I wish that I could tell you why I’m so dramatic
There must be a problem
I don’t think I’ve ever been calm
I see in multicolor
Or nothing at all
Give me an inch, I'll take an ocean
Give me your time, I’ll call you mine
Give me your ear, I’ll talk it off
Give me a year and you’ll give up
Nothing is platonic for a romantic
The things I do consume me
And love is the only option
I'll never wade in margins
I want it all or none of it
Drown me in commitment
Or bury my existence
MISSING
I declined the ride
Walked home in the rain
Bend again to my right brain
Which feeds on trace amounts of pain
And miscellaneous self destructiveness
Keep me low
Get me high
I don’t want to talk about it tonight
I need something to be missing
So I have something to find
I need something to be missing
Bored by the mundane
Shaking hands with flames
Risky but at least it’s amusing
These bruises prove I left my bed
And did something outside of my own head
Let me leak so I don’t freeze
Let me feel the salty sting
Let me pour it down the sink
Let me be what’s wrong with me
KEROSENE
I didn’t think I needed you that much
I’ve always written letters with my right hand
But seeing you again is like breathing
After a strangulation
I didn’t think I missed you that much
'Cause you were always sitting to my left
But touching you again is like bleeding
After they’ve called the time of death
It’s a fracturing
Epiphany
To watch back every scene
And see that I was the kerosene
I didn’t think I held so much distain
For everything that kept me far away
I didn’t think I’d settled into darkness
Until I wished to watch you fray
I didn’t think that I was ever wrong
Truth is just the itch I'd never scratch
The surface of it told me you were smiling
The willing tinder to my feral match
Now please don’t ever leave
I’m unofficially
Half way sorry
Becuase I can’t stand to see
You happier than me
STRAWBERRY BLOOD
I bet your neck tastes nice
I’d pull you close and look into your eyes
You like what you know but you don’t know me at all
I bet your veins are red
But you don’t know mine are ice
You’re reaching for love
When all I taste is strawberry blood
How much can I take from you before you liquify
And sheath my teeth in time for you
To live to tell about the time I saved your life
To live to tell about how I gave you back your life
You fold your hands to pray
I know it makes you feel like you’re safe
You gave me your keys and never bid for honesty
And though it breaks your skin, I’ll be on my way before you notice
I was hungry for blood when all you saw was strawberry blonde
Clench your fists
But loose your grip
I keep you colorless
To fill my own emptiness
And you will never truly mind
Being what I binge
ARE YOU OKAY
I’m on the edge of a loss
I see the writing on every wall
Waiting for the other shoe to drop
Are you okay?
Are you okay?
Or are you the body they found in the lake
I wrote a note I’ll ignore
Sometimes I sit and stare at the door
Waiting for your weight to creak the floor
Living is strange
I mostly just cry
Leave any time
But the contract is implied
I can’t sleep, my mind is a fault line
Are you okay?
Are you okay?
Or are you the reason they closed the highway
Did you drink one too many?
Did you leave the party early?
Do you need resuscitating?
You told me you don’t need saving
A castaway
A memory
A fading flame
A fear I’ll never name